Save me from myself

Update about my life: I have been pretty happy this past week and a half. I got a book coming in the mail about Jesus which I cannot wait to start reading. I want to learn about him and finally build a relationship with him which I have been longing for. I have also grown into a hockey fan, I have been watching the Carolina Hurricanes which are a pretty exciting team to watch, so if you get a chance watch a game or two. No major changes have occurred I am always busy with school and mainly to tired to move or do anything. Anyways I'll update soon again I hope.





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Stars

I love the stars, and pondering on the thoughts of whats all out there.



something’s in the air tonight the sky's alive with a burning light you can mark my words something's about to breakand i found myself in a bitter fight while i've held your hand through the darkest nightdon't know where your coming from but your coming soonto a kid from oregon by way of californiaall of this is more than i've ever known or seencome on and we'll sing, like we were freepush the pedal down watch the world around fly by uscome on and we'll try, one last timei'm off of the floor one more time to find youand here we go there's nothing left to choose and here we go there's nothing left to lose


"For just as lightning comes from the east and is seen as far as the west, so will the coming of the Son of Man be." Matthew 24:27

This is it.

I have been thinking recently, about my past and the way my life is now. I am still feeling lonely and I dont know why I am letting this feeling beat me. I have overcame and been through so much more harder obsticles in my lifetime, now I am just being beaten down and walked all over by my feelings of being lonely. I will beat this and finally be content with my life, I just need to accept the way things are. My life is just going through a process right now where I am building a future for myself, and the people in my future. I imagine myself 15 years from now as: finally finding myself, being with someone special, having my bestfriend with me and finally making or have made something of myself. As of now I have nothing to offer to anyone, I am a confused lost soul who is trying to find guidance. After this guidance has been found, then my happiness will follow. Pray for me please.

The heart is a bloomShoots up through the stony groundThere's no roomNo space to rent in this townYou're out of luckAnd the reason that you had to careThe traffic is stuckAnd you're not moving anywhereYou thought you'd found a friendTo take you out of this placeSomeone you could lend a handIn return for graceIt's a beautiful day

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From Yesterday.

Today was a fairly good day, I feel great now that I feel like I have a building relationship with God. Keep your prayers up for me to find my way onto the right path. I really want to be a great guy, a kind of person that someone can count on. A type of person that people will think good things about. I like everyone else have had my share of mishaps in the past, I have saught forgivenes and I hope I can recieve it. I want to be reborn inside and live my life for Jesus Christ. The relationship I want with him is a permanent one, not an on and off one like I have had. Please continue to pray for me if you have been. Help me find my way


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Only The Lonely

Recently I have been happy with the way my life has been going. I am mainly busy with school and hanging out with Jamie. I have recently been trying to get to know God more, Ben sent me this sermon of the guy in Texas preaching about loneliness. I haven't had a chance to listen to it all yet but from what I've heard this guy knows what he is talking about and it makes me feel glad that I am not the only one having these feelings inside. It seems like no matter how hard I try I simply cannot supress these feelings of loneliness inside and I do not know why I have them. I have been giving it some thought however, I am lonely because I miss having a relationship with God, I miss my friends, and I miss the way things use to be. If you know me really well, I am not a man who is big on change. Little changes don't really bother me but something major really gets to me. I would appreciate your prayers and support.

Left my fear by the side of the roadHear You speakWon't let goFall to my knees as I lift my hands to prayGot every reason to be here againFather's love that draws me inAnd all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of YouAll I need is YouAll I need is You LordIs You Lord

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Hate the sin, love the sinner.
Mahatma Gandhi